"I know you don't." It's mumbled, just barely audible to even Aloy. But her head is too full of too many things: pain, her embarrassment, her paranoia and she is too acutely aware of every sensation in her body from the breeze against her neck to Aloy's hands hovering too close.
Enclosed by foliage, trees, and the fast approaching night it feels like she has no where to run and hide from Aloy's hands and worry. Her brain wants both in equal measure: to hide her shame and to fall into the warm pleasure of her hands. Aloy's hands are already on her while she short circuits and she makes a surprised sounds when her thumbs graze sensitive skin.
Zero looks away, biting down on her finger- thought it doesn't fully quiet the sounds she makes when Aloy's mouth begins to move. It feels good, it feels bad; the more Aloy sucks the more her body wordlessly urges her to continue even though she can't bear to be fully present in this moment lest the shame eat her alive.
Aloy keeps her mouth busy, the frenzied heat in her building with each moment. She’s gentle with Zero despite her eagerness, cognizant of sensitivity and how quickly it could edge into real pain, but relentless. She sucks and kisses her breasts, licks them clean of the moisture gathered there, nuzzles into the valley between them to breathe in the scent of her. It takes her a while to realize that Zero has her face turned away, her face flushed and her eyes closed. Aloy presses a kiss on her sternum, then brings slightly damp fingers to her chin, coaxing her to face her. It’s gentle, this gesture, more an invitation than a demand.
“Hey. Let me see your face.”
She’s out of breath. By now she’s backed them both up against the tree, her arm still wrapped tight around Zero’s waist. She stares up at her, her mouth bruised and wet and her eyes bright in the growing dark. She’s a little out of breath when she speaks. “Tell me what’s wrong.” Everything in her is urging her to continue, and she places gentle kisses against Zero’s chest to quell the urge. “I want you to talk to me.”
It's not uncommon for Aloy to seek out service or to take the lead but this is different. Suddenly, after all their missed signals and unspoken frustrations, Aloy seems to know exactly what she wants - or at least, is unabashedly open about it. This gives Zero pause, she is almost docile as Aloy guides her to look forward and down at her.
She listens to the request but is no less bashful.
The hands around her waist feel heavier than they are and she cranes her head, not realizing until it has happened that Aloy has backed her against a wall. She has no where to go, her shame center stage as she struggles with an answer (its hard to muster one, between the warm wet kisses and the still lingering aches in her breasts - she misses Aloy's lips in more ways than one).
"It's just-" She tilts her head away again, does a full sweep up down and around, and when her gaze comes back to where Aloy had positioned it she stares at a point just past Aloy's face. "- hormones, and shit. I don't know! My tits hurt and I don't know what I want and I miss my fucking baby!"
Again, Aloy tips Zero’s chin in her direction, her hand loosening its grip from her waist. She runs that hand up Zero’s side, then down again with gentle possessiveness.
“Let me take your mind off it.” Her thumb brushes Zero’s lower lip, and she leans forward to kiss her cheek, the line of her jaw, her forehead. “I miss her too.” A pause, and she admits, “But I’ve missed you, so much. I wanted us to come out here together because I missed you.” There’s something tender in Aloy’s expression, something a little hurt too.
“Do you not want this? For me to touch you anymore?” Even with this question, she places a kiss on Zero’s throat. “I know you hate the trip, but I thought… I don’t know. I’ve missed touching you, and it’s as if you hate for me to even look at you now.”
The eggshells Zero knows Aloy has been treading on (and that she hasn't bothered dispelling herself, preoccupied with other things) are forgotten and this is the thing that surprises her the most.
"I never said any of that shit." Instinctively, she turns her head both to give Aloy's mouth more room and to hide again.
"It doesn't have anything to do with you.." the words are spoken in between the shivers that Aloy's touches elicit. "I had a lot of issues before I met you. Popping a kid out and everything else, it just made everything worse."
Aloy keeps her mouth busy, her attention half-split between what Zero says, and the reactions she's causing. Her own thoughts are cloudy and indistinct, muddled. It's a feeling a million times more powerful than any Oseram ale she's ever been given — something stuck between adrenaline and desire. She kisses Zero as if she's afraid that she'll lose her chance if she does. She works her way down Zero's neck, leaving bruises in the shape of her teeth. She lowers her mouth to Zero's breasts again, gazing up at her. Her tongue traces over one of her nipples, and for a moment, it seems as if she might choose not to answer.
"I get it," she says, her voice ragged but, all things considered, oddly calm. "I do. I know you didn't say that, and it's selfish of me to be hurt by it, but I... I can't help it."
It's a rarely admitted thing. Somewhere, distantly, the side of her still cognizant of embarrassment rails against this. However, she continues, the words mumbled now into Zero's skin. "I don't want you to hide from me."
She takes Zero's breast into her mouth to suck again, one hand teasing the other. Her other hand impatiently moves to fumble with her own clothing — she's too warm, and all of her nerves buzz with eagerness.
It's instinct and an unknowing need that keeps her in step with Aloy. She parts her lips wide, as if feeding off of what Aloy has given her, lips and tongue readily offering themselves to her in hopes of receiving something in return. She's dizzy when Aloy has moved on, she'll blame that on the lack of oxygen— so much of it siphoned away when they were feeding off each other in the form of wet kisses.
Each bite, suck and flick of Aloy's tongue makes her shudder. She's drunk on this, mind slowly becoming somewhat sober when Aloy admits to something she never did.
"Better admitting to being a little brat than pretending you're not." She mumbles, pushing hair away from her face. The humidity and everything else have already made her sticky with perspiration— her fingers get tangled in her hair when she startles from Aloy's breast on her mouth again.
Something about this admission makes her blush.
"What the hells gotten into you? Here—" She doesn't push Aloy away but pays no mind in potentially disturbing her as she helps loosen the ties and straps of her clothing. Zero stops intermittently to hiss and whine, toes curling in her boots at how Aloy teases her. She herself always exists in a state of some kind of want between the warped nature of her brain and post pregnant hormones, so she has yet to actualize how the pollen may have caused this in the both of them.
For a while, the only thing that Aloy focuses on is undoing her armor and what remained of Zero's own, ignoring the question. Mingled with the harsh sound of their breathing is the clatter of armor and creak of leather, the rustling of cloth as it flutters to the ground below.
Aloy pulls back long enough to admire the sight of Zero, her skin flushed red, marred with blossoming bruises and the greedy imprint of her teeth, her nipples puffy, swollen and wet with saliva and milk. It's... intoxicating, she thinks, and she says the first thing that comes to mind, too excited to be sheepish.
"Nothing's gotten into me — just decided to stop beating around the bush. Wasn't working out." She bunches Zero's clothing up around her waist, lifting her easily as she kneels, throwing her legs over her shoulders. She speaks up again, almost amused. "Is that threat about not screwing anything still in effect? 'Cause I've got some ideas."
She's not fully conscious of what the endgame here is, somehow- her body moves faster than she thinks, caught in the frenzy, some insatiable itchy burning across her skin satisfied only by constant movement and friction. Zero doesn't realize just how all-consuming this sensation is until Aloy pulls away; it's like the onset of some severe allergy, more incessant but not totally miserable.
She is never as conscious of Aloy's gaze as she is now. Zero turns her head, somehow able to even in the face of her desire for friction. This is perhaps, the truest testament to her shyness (in some way it feels good to know she's still capable of it).
"You made this shit harder for yourself by being a pussy. I already had your stupid baby, you don't need to build a case for it.."
Normally, this commentary would make her withdraw. She's always a little sensitive to Zero's bluntness, despite her best efforts, though this time it's met with a raised eyebrow. This time, she takes in Zero's body language, the way she refuses to make eye contact, and a thought occurs to her.
"Is that so? So that's it?" Her hand works up Zero's thigh, impatient and eager both, toying with her without her fingers slipping inside. "You want me to, what? Just bend you over whenever I feel like it?" It's a question she doesn't wait for an answer for before she demands, "Look at me."
Even embarrassment and shame cannot rival or win against Zero's anger. The guiding force that it is makes her head snap in Aloy's direction, all of her very clearly caught between two extremes. She tries to pretend she has no idea what Aloy's hand is doing.
"Look who's feeling brave now!" Her eyes sting, some unseen powder sticking to her eyelashes and making every movement heavier than the last. It makes it more difficult to focus, which only serves to irritate her more- all she wanted was to be properly angry, and instead she finds herself torn between variously infuriating distractions.
"Fine, you have my fucking attention. What do you want to hear Aloy?" Very rarely does she say her name. A Zero sort of habit that seemed to extend further than Mikhail (she is still too afraid of loss). She'd noticed it was an especially powerful thing, even though she never consciously intended it to be.
"That your beating around the bush got us lost and gave you blue balls?" She hasn't fully caught on to the fact that this may be something effecting her as well. There is a part of her that they have never truly discussed (and part of her is afraid to ask if Aloy already knows) that craves physical intimacy incessantly and also despises it. Some days it felt as necessary as a balm or medicine.
So she always exists in this state, to some degree.
"If you need things ask for them, Aloy. Otherwise we end up like this- milking me in the goddamn woods."
Zero saying her name makes her startle, her hands tensing. Then she's frustrated all over again, her own emotions a tumult. She laughs hoarsely, her gaze not breaking from Zero's even as she slides her fingers inside of her.
"That's interesting," she breathes out, still calm, "because I can't have been the only one with blue balls, with the state you're in." Her thrusts start off slow, careful — it's been a while. Too long. And part of her is drunk on the feeling of Zero's undivided attention, wants to bring out more of it. "You're already this wet."
Her heart is beating so hard that she can hear it in her head, feel it in the back of her throat. It's an adrenaline rush akin to what she feels during a battle — that odd mixture of heat and exhilaration mingled with danger. Not an unusual feeling, but not one she usually feels so strongly, especially not during sex.
It's not a thought she lingers on for long. She presses herself against Zero instead, trapping her hand between them and driving her fingers deeper. "You're a hypocrite, Zero." She gasps the words out, burying her face into the crook of Zero's neck. "You don't tell me what you need, either."
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The gasp Zero releases is quiet and sharp, but her mouth parts wide— jaw flung open as if she's been knifed in the side. It is sudden, and it is not enough.
Their equally half-dressed states only add to her frustration. What remains of their armor and clothes is too heavy and almost itchy, depriving her skin of the silky heat of Aloy's skin, which feels like the only possible balm for the way all of her feels (like some kind of invisible, irritation rash has been peppered over her body).
Zero groans and presses her head back against the tree she's been backed into. Her thighs press against Aloy's hand, locking them together like some horny latch and key.
"Shut up—" Aloy's goading only adds to her frustration; she can hardly focus on a comeback in between it all. "It's different- I'm not an attention whore like you. It's cute actually.. the thought of you pouting because you wanted to fuck me so bad."
"Oh, it's different?" Zero's annoyance seems to energize her, making her eyes overbright and her grin sharp. "Big talk, for someone squirming all over my hand. And what if I did, huh?" The rhythm of her thrusts picks up, and she puts her weight into it now, doing her best to ignore the crawling, desperate feeling rolling over her to focus on Zero’s reactions and the slickness between her legs, coating her fingers now.
"Is that so strange, to want the mother of my child?" It takes some work, with how tightly her hand is squeezed between Zero's thighs, but her thumb moves over her clit, finding a pattern between strokes of her fingers. "Especially when you've been hiding from me for months— you think I haven't noticed?"
The sounds she makes are more erratic, unsteady with how Aloy teases her. It's almost painful to want like this and not be fully soothed. However, all of that does not stop Zero from glowering in embarrassment. Zero throws her hands back against the trunk of the tree to steady herself, unintentionally making herself more vulnerable in the process.
"Don't say it like that—" it is strange to be claimed like this, especially by Aloy who sometimes felt like an island even now after everything. But it is not unpleasant.
Zero has to dig the heels of her boots into the lush ground to maintain her balance.
"I knew you noticed, stupid. I just.. didn't know it mattered." For a variety of reasons: the first being her singular and all consuming focus on their child, whose existence filled her with love and fear in equal amounts. The secondary reasons being how she had changed: baby weight that had not left her and might not ever, the stretch marks and disastrous effects of breastfeeding. She'd felt far away from her body until Aloy's hands came to remind her that she was still very much inside of it.
The contrast between the way Zero pushes herself into Aloy's hands and what she says— all her insecurities on display— surprises her. She'd had an inkling of this, given Zero's reticence when it came to even being seen in a state of undress, but she didn't guess that she'd seemed indifferent to it.
"Why not? You are." She shifts up to kiss Zero, tender despite the roughness of her hand between Zero's thighs. She slows down a fraction, so that her words won't be misunderstood. "And of course it matters." She smiles. "You're still the most beautiful woman I've ever seen."
She debates something, slowing her pace as she does until they've stopped. Her fingers, still deep in Zero, curl slightly.
"I have something for you," she murmurs, "A surprise."
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In the most literal sense they are a family. Logically, she knows this- a mom, a 'dad' and a baby in a place where a family's legitimacy was not decided by the presence of a man. But somehow and for some reason it's difficult for her to connect the dots in her brain: she is wanted and needed, by not just their child, but Aloy as well.
Her moods and unspoken insecurities caused ripples in the lives of two other people- because they cared, because they needed her.
Aloy's kiss is slow-paced and sweet, and Zero strains to pull something more from her, tugging on her lip with her teeth in hopes of keeping Aloy from pulling away for as long as possible. When she does pull away Zero shudders, every curve of Aloy's fingers making it hard to stay still. Though she does manage this:
"Gross." She's embarrassed, unsure exactly what to do with romance in the middle of something so heated and animalistic. She pushes forward some, forcing Aloy to hold more of her weight. Her ankles tangle around Aloy's feet, hands wrapped around her back so that she can press against her. Zero creates friction any way she can on visible skin; they are cheek to cheek practically.
"Another surprise? You haven't learned your lesson yet, have you?"
Zero's embarrassment makes Aloy brighten, the pollen mingling with her own delight and making her feel giddy. Their closeness adds to the heady feeling— their bodies still joined has her reluctant to move, and the friction Zero creates makes her shiver.
"I think you'll like this one. We'll ah, have to move from this tree for it." She makes no move to do so herself initially, then pulls back with begrudging slowness, her fingers slipping out of Zero. A heartbeat later and she's picked her up, urging her to wrap her legs around her waist.
"It's something we've talked about," she says, as she leads them to their bedrolls.
She doesn't come to until Aloy has pulled out. Her dissatisfaction is obvious, she has to look around frantically to figure out what's happening— still so in a daze from the pollen and Aloy's hand. Her legs wrap around Aloy instinctively. She is wet through her underwear and clothes.
"You'll have to narrow it down. There's at least four books worth of planned horny fantasies at this point." She says, tone flat (she's only being a little hyperbolic, they'd been worse than rabbits prior to Zero getting sick).
"we've already done missionary in the middle of the woods." She looks confused and annoyed when Aloy sets her down. "A few times, actually. It's fine, but it's not really special."
Aloy hmms in response, acknowledging Zero's comment without answering. She raises an eyebrow at the crack about missionary, turning away from Zero after getting her settled on the bedding.
"I've been planning this trip for months," she answers finally, sifting through her things. This particular pack had been left unmolested by Zero's earlier rifling through, and she's grateful for it. "Give me some credit— honestly. Missionary in the middle of the woods..." The last of this is mumbled in subdued annoyance without any true bite to it.
She has to shuck off her trousers and underwear, and it's a relief— the humid air feeling cool against her flushed and overheated skin. What becomes apparent as she turns around is that she's attaching a harness to her hips, and what she's holding in one hand is a device, phallic-shaped and slightly ridged, sleeker than the other inventions Aloy's come up with during her adventures. She breathes out in a whoosh, then attaches the toy to the harness. There's a shaky breath as it clicks into place, symmetrical lines along it glowing a gentle Focus-blue and iridescent gold. She breathes out carefully— the phallus is semi-erect, which is interesting, and she's a little flushed, which is moreso.
"I had to, um," another breath, "research this. APOLLO helped. The Zenith tech got me a ways too. I could've asked GAIA or Beta for help, but it's, uh. Kind of awkward, and I've tested it on... myself." Her flush deepens, from embarrassment this time. "Took a lot of trial and error. Either it was too sensitive, or not sensitive enough, and I had to think about how it would affect my nerves, and..."
Zero finds her outrage.. cute, almost. But she would not dare to say it outloud, at least not in a way that was true to how she actually felt. It was disgusting.
She fixates lazily on Aloy undressing, it soothes her and temporarily distracts her from the uncomfortable warmth blooming under her skin. It's like that painful, dull itch that warns of a sunburn. Instinctively, she leans back when Aloy swings that thing around in her direction.
She half listens, gaze comically torn between her face and Aloy's techno dick. Eventually, she springs to life again and seems to find it in her to close her jaw. Zero crawls forward on her knees muttering to herself.
"You said you tested it-" Her finger just barely touches the tip, hand pulling back the second it responds. Suddenly, she lifts off the ground just slightly- only enough to fully push down the top of her tunic. All the fabric bunches up around her waist when she sits on her knees again. The fabric of her half-off clothes scrunches around her, and Zero looks up at Aloy with a new kind of hunger. There is nothing sharp or gleeful in her gaze as one might expect from Zero. Her eyes don't leave Aloy's face and she moves naturally despite this being the grand unveiling.
Zero leans forward and grasps the tool softly. It leans against her breasts as her hand moves up and down its length.
She's about to get into the schematics, her failed experiments, but Zero's intent and focused look gives her pause. She trails off to watch her advance in her unhurried and confident way, making a slight noise when she touches the tip, then sighing out unsteadily when she begins to stroke its length.
"I, um..." It had been one thing to do this herself: hurried and analytical, in secret and under the cover of night. It was something else entirely for Zero to be doing it, surrounded by the softness and warmth of her. She bites down the desire to stammer. "At first I tried it... unattached. I had to be sure it wouldn't hurt you, test the responsiveness, ah-" She swallows, unable to pull her eyes away. "You know, trial and error..."
She leans back some, bracing herself with her hand.
What surprises Zero the most is that it's warm to the touch, feels almost like skin despite its sleek look. It's not all that different from the robotic arm stroking it she supposes— the synthetic material of her hand felt as soft and warm as the flesh and blood one she'd lost long ago. It felt just as much too, even despite the risks that came along with such a thing.
"So you jerked off." She breaks down all of Aloy's scientific research and health and safety inspections into a singular act. Zero lets go and the strap falls onto her chest. She lays her hands on either side of her breasts and pushes them up and they shift to cradle it between her cleavage. They are still just a bit damp with milk.
"Not just once but a few times, yeah?" Zero puckers her lips and lets the saliva well up in her mouth, it spills slowly along the top of the strap, dripping down its length for added lubrication. Her hands move her breasts up and down its shaft— the pocket they create is as soft as it is firm.
"What did you think about?" Her eyes do not leave Aloy's face.
In the process of creating this device, Aloy had mentally prepared a list of responses to questions she thought Zero might ask. The Old Ones called it a FAQ — a set of answers to common inquiries. None of her drilling had prepared her for this particular question, in this particular context. Nor is she prepared for Zero's lack of apprehension — though she supposes that much, she should have accounted for.
The strap's sensitive, connected to her nervous system in the way the Zenith's nanotech created their protective suits and opulent, alien architecture. Simulacra tech, rigged to the Focus to monitor her vitals and spikes in hormones. The gold lines along the shaft shimmer and undulate in response to stimulation, working as blood might to make a human phallus engorge and harden. Aloy gasps, squirming at it despite being relatively accustomed by now. It's the heat and the air and Zero's closeness that do it, she thinks, or tries to think. She's understandably distracted by what Zero is doing, caught in a quantum state of fascination and bashfulness. The latter fades as Zero squeezes her length between her breasts and begins to move. The cock twitches, cradled in heat and dampness and Aloy gasps loudly in response, her head tilting back instinctively. Her hips rock forward into the motion, and she has just enough sense to notice how Zero's skin shimmers from saliva and residual milk. This, understandably, makes her focus worse.
"Ah-y... yeah, that's, mm, that's um, one way to put it." Somehow the next question embarrasses her a little, despite the situation. It takes her a moment to say anything.
"I... I thought of you." She begins, swallowing visibily. That alone wouldn't be enough, she knows from the heaviness of Zero's gaze on her, and the pollen unknowingly helps her along, loosening her tongue. "I thought of you riding me, or taking you from behind—" Her hands clench into white-knuckled fists, and she leans back in order to angle her hips so that she can get more friction.
The tech mumbo jumbo she doesn't care about. Her mind is elsewhere, consumed by the long term focus and discipline involved in the act of dreaming up and executing such a convoluted plan all in the name of pleasuring Zero. It brings out something in Zero that is uncharacteristically docile, just as much as it is passionate and ravenous.
Her hands maneuver faster, increasing the warm friction that surrounds Aloy's cock.
"So? Does this thing work like a normal dick? How long before you come all over my tits?"
She leans down, shaking her head to pull back her hair since her hands are occupied. Zero licks the very tip of it with her tongue, a shudder following when she feels it twitch against her mouth. She does this again and again, long strokes around it's rounded head, as if trying to get to the center of something sweet and hard.
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Enclosed by foliage, trees, and the fast approaching night it feels like she has no where to run and hide from Aloy's hands and worry. Her brain wants both in equal measure: to hide her shame and to fall into the warm pleasure of her hands. Aloy's hands are already on her while she short circuits and she makes a surprised sounds when her thumbs graze sensitive skin.
Zero looks away, biting down on her finger- thought it doesn't fully quiet the sounds she makes when Aloy's mouth begins to move. It feels good, it feels bad; the more Aloy sucks the more her body wordlessly urges her to continue even though she can't bear to be fully present in this moment lest the shame eat her alive.
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“Hey. Let me see your face.”
She’s out of breath. By now she’s backed them both up against the tree, her arm still wrapped tight around Zero’s waist. She stares up at her, her mouth bruised and wet and her eyes bright in the growing dark. She’s a little out of breath when she speaks. “Tell me what’s wrong.” Everything in her is urging her to continue, and she places gentle kisses against Zero’s chest to quell the urge. “I want you to talk to me.”
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She listens to the request but is no less bashful.
The hands around her waist feel heavier than they are and she cranes her head, not realizing until it has happened that Aloy has backed her against a wall. She has no where to go, her shame center stage as she struggles with an answer (its hard to muster one, between the warm wet kisses and the still lingering aches in her breasts - she misses Aloy's lips in more ways than one).
"It's just-" She tilts her head away again, does a full sweep up down and around, and when her gaze comes back to where Aloy had positioned it she stares at a point just past Aloy's face. "- hormones, and shit. I don't know! My tits hurt and I don't know what I want and I miss my fucking baby!"
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“Let me take your mind off it.” Her thumb brushes Zero’s lower lip, and she leans forward to kiss her cheek, the line of her jaw, her forehead. “I miss her too.” A pause, and she admits, “But I’ve missed you, so much. I wanted us to come out here together because I missed you.” There’s something tender in Aloy’s expression, something a little hurt too.
“Do you not want this? For me to touch you anymore?” Even with this question, she places a kiss on Zero’s throat. “I know you hate the trip, but I thought… I don’t know. I’ve missed touching you, and it’s as if you hate for me to even look at you now.”
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"I never said any of that shit." Instinctively, she turns her head both to give Aloy's mouth more room and to hide again.
"It doesn't have anything to do with you.." the words are spoken in between the shivers that Aloy's touches elicit. "I had a lot of issues before I met you. Popping a kid out and everything else, it just made everything worse."
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"I get it," she says, her voice ragged but, all things considered, oddly calm. "I do. I know you didn't say that, and it's selfish of me to be hurt by it, but I... I can't help it."
It's a rarely admitted thing. Somewhere, distantly, the side of her still cognizant of embarrassment rails against this. However, she continues, the words mumbled now into Zero's skin. "I don't want you to hide from me."
She takes Zero's breast into her mouth to suck again, one hand teasing the other. Her other hand impatiently moves to fumble with her own clothing — she's too warm, and all of her nerves buzz with eagerness.
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Each bite, suck and flick of Aloy's tongue makes her shudder. She's drunk on this, mind slowly becoming somewhat sober when Aloy admits to something she never did.
"Better admitting to being a little brat than pretending you're not." She mumbles, pushing hair away from her face. The humidity and everything else have already made her sticky with perspiration— her fingers get tangled in her hair when she startles from Aloy's breast on her mouth again.
Something about this admission makes her blush.
"What the hells gotten into you? Here—" She doesn't push Aloy away but pays no mind in potentially disturbing her as she helps loosen the ties and straps of her clothing. Zero stops intermittently to hiss and whine, toes curling in her boots at how Aloy teases her. She herself always exists in a state of some kind of want between the warped nature of her brain and post pregnant hormones, so she has yet to actualize how the pollen may have caused this in the both of them.
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Aloy pulls back long enough to admire the sight of Zero, her skin flushed red, marred with blossoming bruises and the greedy imprint of her teeth, her nipples puffy, swollen and wet with saliva and milk. It's... intoxicating, she thinks, and she says the first thing that comes to mind, too excited to be sheepish.
"Nothing's gotten into me — just decided to stop beating around the bush. Wasn't working out." She bunches Zero's clothing up around her waist, lifting her easily as she kneels, throwing her legs over her shoulders. She speaks up again, almost amused. "Is that threat about not screwing anything still in effect? 'Cause I've got some ideas."
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She is never as conscious of Aloy's gaze as she is now. Zero turns her head, somehow able to even in the face of her desire for friction. This is perhaps, the truest testament to her shyness (in some way it feels good to know she's still capable of it).
"You made this shit harder for yourself by being a pussy. I already had your stupid baby, you don't need to build a case for it.."
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"Is that so? So that's it?" Her hand works up Zero's thigh, impatient and eager both, toying with her without her fingers slipping inside. "You want me to, what? Just bend you over whenever I feel like it?" It's a question she doesn't wait for an answer for before she demands, "Look at me."
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"Look who's feeling brave now!" Her eyes sting, some unseen powder sticking to her eyelashes and making every movement heavier than the last. It makes it more difficult to focus, which only serves to irritate her more- all she wanted was to be properly angry, and instead she finds herself torn between variously infuriating distractions.
"Fine, you have my fucking attention. What do you want to hear Aloy?" Very rarely does she say her name. A Zero sort of habit that seemed to extend further than Mikhail (she is still too afraid of loss). She'd noticed it was an especially powerful thing, even though she never consciously intended it to be.
"That your beating around the bush got us lost and gave you blue balls?" She hasn't fully caught on to the fact that this may be something effecting her as well. There is a part of her that they have never truly discussed (and part of her is afraid to ask if Aloy already knows) that craves physical intimacy incessantly and also despises it. Some days it felt as necessary as a balm or medicine.
So she always exists in this state, to some degree.
"If you need things ask for them, Aloy. Otherwise we end up like this- milking me in the goddamn woods."
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"That's interesting," she breathes out, still calm, "because I can't have been the only one with blue balls, with the state you're in." Her thrusts start off slow, careful — it's been a while. Too long. And part of her is drunk on the feeling of Zero's undivided attention, wants to bring out more of it. "You're already this wet."
Her heart is beating so hard that she can hear it in her head, feel it in the back of her throat. It's an adrenaline rush akin to what she feels during a battle — that odd mixture of heat and exhilaration mingled with danger. Not an unusual feeling, but not one she usually feels so strongly, especially not during sex.
It's not a thought she lingers on for long. She presses herself against Zero instead, trapping her hand between them and driving her fingers deeper. "You're a hypocrite, Zero." She gasps the words out, burying her face into the crook of Zero's neck. "You don't tell me what you need, either."
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The gasp Zero releases is quiet and sharp, but her mouth parts wide— jaw flung open as if she's been knifed in the side. It is sudden, and it is not enough.
Their equally half-dressed states only add to her frustration. What remains of their armor and clothes is too heavy and almost itchy, depriving her skin of the silky heat of Aloy's skin, which feels like the only possible balm for the way all of her feels (like some kind of invisible, irritation rash has been peppered over her body).
Zero groans and presses her head back against the tree she's been backed into. Her thighs press against Aloy's hand, locking them together like some horny latch and key.
"Shut up—" Aloy's goading only adds to her frustration; she can hardly focus on a comeback in between it all. "It's different- I'm not an attention whore like you. It's cute actually.. the thought of you pouting because you wanted to fuck me so bad."
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"Is that so strange, to want the mother of my child?" It takes some work, with how tightly her hand is squeezed between Zero's thighs, but her thumb moves over her clit, finding a pattern between strokes of her fingers. "Especially when you've been hiding from me for months— you think I haven't noticed?"
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"Don't say it like that—" it is strange to be claimed like this, especially by Aloy who sometimes felt like an island even now after everything. But it is not unpleasant.
Zero has to dig the heels of her boots into the lush ground to maintain her balance.
"I knew you noticed, stupid. I just.. didn't know it mattered." For a variety of reasons: the first being her singular and all consuming focus on their child, whose existence filled her with love and fear in equal amounts. The secondary reasons being how she had changed: baby weight that had not left her and might not ever, the stretch marks and disastrous effects of breastfeeding. She'd felt far away from her body until Aloy's hands came to remind her that she was still very much inside of it.
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"Why not? You are." She shifts up to kiss Zero, tender despite the roughness of her hand between Zero's thighs. She slows down a fraction, so that her words won't be misunderstood. "And of course it matters." She smiles. "You're still the most beautiful woman I've ever seen."
She debates something, slowing her pace as she does until they've stopped. Her fingers, still deep in Zero, curl slightly.
"I have something for you," she murmurs, "A surprise."
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Her moods and unspoken insecurities caused ripples in the lives of two other people- because they cared, because they needed her.
Aloy's kiss is slow-paced and sweet, and Zero strains to pull something more from her, tugging on her lip with her teeth in hopes of keeping Aloy from pulling away for as long as possible. When she does pull away Zero shudders, every curve of Aloy's fingers making it hard to stay still. Though she does manage this:
"Gross." She's embarrassed, unsure exactly what to do with romance in the middle of something so heated and animalistic. She pushes forward some, forcing Aloy to hold more of her weight. Her ankles tangle around Aloy's feet, hands wrapped around her back so that she can press against her. Zero creates friction any way she can on visible skin; they are cheek to cheek practically.
"Another surprise? You haven't learned your lesson yet, have you?"
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"I think you'll like this one. We'll ah, have to move from this tree for it." She makes no move to do so herself initially, then pulls back with begrudging slowness, her fingers slipping out of Zero. A heartbeat later and she's picked her up, urging her to wrap her legs around her waist.
"It's something we've talked about," she says, as she leads them to their bedrolls.
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"You'll have to narrow it down. There's at least four books worth of planned horny fantasies at this point." She says, tone flat (she's only being a little hyperbolic, they'd been worse than rabbits prior to Zero getting sick).
"we've already done missionary in the middle of the woods." She looks confused and annoyed when Aloy sets her down. "A few times, actually. It's fine, but it's not really special."
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"I've been planning this trip for months," she answers finally, sifting through her things. This particular pack had been left unmolested by Zero's earlier rifling through, and she's grateful for it. "Give me some credit— honestly. Missionary in the middle of the woods..." The last of this is mumbled in subdued annoyance without any true bite to it.
She has to shuck off her trousers and underwear, and it's a relief— the humid air feeling cool against her flushed and overheated skin. What becomes apparent as she turns around is that she's attaching a harness to her hips, and what she's holding in one hand is a device, phallic-shaped and slightly ridged, sleeker than the other inventions Aloy's come up with during her adventures. She breathes out in a whoosh, then attaches the toy to the harness. There's a shaky breath as it clicks into place, symmetrical lines along it glowing a gentle Focus-blue and iridescent gold. She breathes out carefully— the phallus is semi-erect, which is interesting, and she's a little flushed, which is moreso.
"I had to, um," another breath, "research this. APOLLO helped. The Zenith tech got me a ways too. I could've asked GAIA or Beta for help, but it's, uh. Kind of awkward, and I've tested it on... myself." Her flush deepens, from embarrassment this time. "Took a lot of trial and error. Either it was too sensitive, or not sensitive enough, and I had to think about how it would affect my nerves, and..."
She's getting into the weeds about her research.
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She fixates lazily on Aloy undressing, it soothes her and temporarily distracts her from the uncomfortable warmth blooming under her skin. It's like that painful, dull itch that warns of a sunburn. Instinctively, she leans back when Aloy swings that thing around in her direction.
She half listens, gaze comically torn between her face and Aloy's techno dick. Eventually, she springs to life again and seems to find it in her to close her jaw. Zero crawls forward on her knees muttering to herself.
"You said you tested it-" Her finger just barely touches the tip, hand pulling back the second it responds. Suddenly, she lifts off the ground just slightly- only enough to fully push down the top of her tunic. All the fabric bunches up around her waist when she sits on her knees again. The fabric of her half-off clothes scrunches around her, and Zero looks up at Aloy with a new kind of hunger. There is nothing sharp or gleeful in her gaze as one might expect from Zero. Her eyes don't leave Aloy's face and she moves naturally despite this being the grand unveiling.
Zero leans forward and grasps the tool softly. It leans against her breasts as her hand moves up and down its length.
"How?"
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"I, um..." It had been one thing to do this herself: hurried and analytical, in secret and under the cover of night. It was something else entirely for Zero to be doing it, surrounded by the softness and warmth of her. She bites down the desire to stammer. "At first I tried it... unattached. I had to be sure it wouldn't hurt you, test the responsiveness, ah-" She swallows, unable to pull her eyes away. "You know, trial and error..."
She leans back some, bracing herself with her hand.
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"So you jerked off." She breaks down all of Aloy's scientific research and health and safety inspections into a singular act. Zero lets go and the strap falls onto her chest. She lays her hands on either side of her breasts and pushes them up and they shift to cradle it between her cleavage. They are still just a bit damp with milk.
"Not just once but a few times, yeah?" Zero puckers her lips and lets the saliva well up in her mouth, it spills slowly along the top of the strap, dripping down its length for added lubrication. Her hands move her breasts up and down its shaft— the pocket they create is as soft as it is firm.
"What did you think about?" Her eyes do not leave Aloy's face.
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The strap's sensitive, connected to her nervous system in the way the Zenith's nanotech created their protective suits and opulent, alien architecture. Simulacra tech, rigged to the Focus to monitor her vitals and spikes in hormones. The gold lines along the shaft shimmer and undulate in response to stimulation, working as blood might to make a human phallus engorge and harden. Aloy gasps, squirming at it despite being relatively accustomed by now. It's the heat and the air and Zero's closeness that do it, she thinks, or tries to think. She's understandably distracted by what Zero is doing, caught in a quantum state of fascination and bashfulness. The latter fades as Zero squeezes her length between her breasts and begins to move. The cock twitches, cradled in heat and dampness and Aloy gasps loudly in response, her head tilting back instinctively. Her hips rock forward into the motion, and she has just enough sense to notice how Zero's skin shimmers from saliva and residual milk. This, understandably, makes her focus worse.
"Ah-y... yeah, that's, mm, that's um, one way to put it." Somehow the next question embarrasses her a little, despite the situation. It takes her a moment to say anything.
"I... I thought of you." She begins, swallowing visibily. That alone wouldn't be enough, she knows from the heaviness of Zero's gaze on her, and the pollen unknowingly helps her along, loosening her tongue. "I thought of you riding me, or taking you from behind—" Her hands clench into white-knuckled fists, and she leans back in order to angle her hips so that she can get more friction.
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Her hands maneuver faster, increasing the warm friction that surrounds Aloy's cock.
"So? Does this thing work like a normal dick? How long before you come all over my tits?"
She leans down, shaking her head to pull back her hair since her hands are occupied. Zero licks the very tip of it with her tongue, a shudder following when she feels it twitch against her mouth. She does this again and again, long strokes around it's rounded head, as if trying to get to the center of something sweet and hard.
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