[ a big brother is always gentle and patient. he does not raise his voice. that's not who he is, or who he was ever meant to be.

so instead it lowers, just the slightest bit guttural. ]

Why are you so opposed to being happy?

[ he doesn't leave the door, but he certainly doesn't move beyond it either. ]

Surviving and living are two different things. Trying isn't going to hurt you. Not here.